By Brandi Fowler
Jan 12, 2018 @ 4:15 pm

Nina Agdal isn’t afraid to speak her truth. The model not only opened up about a recent body-shaming incident but also revealed how her crippling social anxiety and industry pressures caused her to take a year off from modeling.

In an Instagram post where Agdal shared a photo of herself shirtless and in jeans, she wrote, “Today, I’m disappointed and appalled at the still very harsh reality of this industry. A few months ago, I agreed to shoot with a creative team I believed in and was excited to collaborate with.”

“When my agent received an unapologetic email concluding they would not run my cover/story because it 'did not reflect well on my talent' and 'did not fit their market,' the publisher claimed my look deviated from my portfolio and that I did not fit into the (sample size) samples, which is completely false,” she continued. “If anyone has any interest in me, they know I am not an average model body—I have an athletic build and healthy curves.”

Today, I’m disappointed and appalled at the still very harsh reality of this industry. A few months ago, I agreed to shoot with a creative team I believed in and was excited to collaborate with. When my agent received an unapologetic email concluding they would not run my cover/story because it “did not reflect well on my talent” and “did not fit their market,” the publisher claimed my look deviated from my portfolio and that I did not fit into the (sample size) samples, which is completely false. If anyone has any interest in me, they know I am not an average model body - I have an athletic build and healthy curves. After a tough year of taking a step back from the insensitive and unrealistic pressures of this industry and dealing with paralyzing social anxiety, I walked into that shoot as a 25 year old WOMAN feeling more comfortable in my own skin and healthier than ever before. Some days I’m a sample size, some days I’m a size 4, some a 6. I am not built as a runway model and have never been stick thin. Now more than ever, I embrace my curves and work diligently in the gym to stay strong and most of all, sane. I am proud to say that my body has evolved from when I started this crazy ride as a 16 year old GIRL with unhealthy and insufficient eating habits. So, shame on you and thank you to the publisher for reaffirming how important it is to live your truth and say it out loud, no matter who you are or what size. I decided to release an image to draw awareness and support of an issue that's bigger than just myself and affects so many people not just in the fashion industry, but in general, with the goal of bringing women from all over together in a celebration of our bodies. Let's find ways to build each other up instead of constantly finding ways to tear each other down. #bodyshaming #bodyimage #selfimage #dietculture #mybodymybusiness

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Agdal said the blow came after she took a year away from the “insensitive and unrealistic pressures of the industry” and dealt with her “paralyzing social anxiety.” So, when the shoot went down, she said she walked into it “as a 25-year-old WOMAN feeling more comfortable in my own skin and healthier than ever before.”

“Some days I’m a sample size, some days I’m a size 4, some a 6,” she continued. “I am not built as a runway model and have never been stick thin. Now more than ever, I embrace my curves and work diligently in the gym to stay strong and most of all, sane. I am proud to say that my body has evolved from when I started this crazy ride as a 16-year-old GIRL with unhealthy and insufficient eating habits.”

“So, shame on you and thank you to the publisher for reaffirming how important it is to live your truth and say it out loud, no matter who you are or what size,” she went on. Agdal said she decided to share the image to bring awareness to body shaming in general in hopes that women everywhere will celebrate their bodies. “Let's find ways to build each other up instead of constantly finding ways to tear each other down,” she concluded.