News Yes, Even Mariah Carey Suffers from Low Self-Esteem By Alexandra Whittaker Alexandra Whittaker Instagram Twitter Website Alexandra Whittaker is a news and pop culture editor based in New York City. She studied at the Medill School of Journalism at Northwestern University and at Marquette University, where she freelanced for USA Today, Women's Wear Daily, and ELLE. She currently leads both the news and entertainment teams at Cosmopolitan magazine and previously worked as the news editor of InStyle.com where she spearheaded awards coverage. She enjoys writing and editing news stories, interviewing celebrities, and covering the intricacies of the British royal family. InStyle's editorial guidelines Updated on August 22, 2017 @ 05:00PM Pin Share Tweet Email Mariah Carey is one of the most recognizable faces in the music industry, so it's hard to imagine her struggling, but the singer took a break from her current tour to talk to Page Six about her rocky road to success. “I remember it not being easy getting a record deal. Making demos in the middle of the night, sleeping on the floor in the studio, being broke with no food. My go-to meal was [Newman’s Own] sauce," she said. "Me and my friend would split the pasta and sauce for, like, a week. Or it was, like, a bagel and iced tea ... The guy would give it to me at the deli for free.” FilmMagic/FilmMagic Her financial (and presumably culinary) situation is significantly better today, but she said she still struggles with low self-esteem, even now. While fans might be surprised to hear this from the diva, Carey said she's just like everyone else who struggles with doubt sometimes. “I just feel like I am a regular human being and I deserve the same respect as anybody else. I have always had low self-esteem, and people do not recognize that," she said. “I can’t measure what type of respect I deserve—I really can’t.” VIDEO: Blue Ivy Carter Is #Flawless Meeting Mariah Carey's Kids Even though she said she still struggles with low self-esteem, Carey acknowledged that she has come a long way. “Growing up different, being biracial, having the whole thing where I did not know if I fit in ... That is why music became such a big part of my life, because it helped me overcome those issues,” she said. “Sometimes it is hard to let your guard down.” Jennifer Lopez Strips Down to Glittering Lingerie for Paper Magazine Now, the singer is in the middle of a successful tour and is working on a new fragrance with Elizabeth Arden—"It smells like success," she teased—and she's got a "secret song" in the works. We can't wait to see what's next.