By Lara Walsh
Updated Aug 07, 2017 @ 11:00 am
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Kylie Jenner is dishing on the pitfalls of growing up as the youngest member of the Kardashian-Jenner clan.

As the Keeping Up with the Kardashians star debuted her own show, Life of Kylie, on Sunday night, the 19-year-old opened up to her fans by touching on the trappings of life in the limelight and the loneliness of fame.

During the two-part premiere, we see the lipstick maven get ready to take a Sacramento high school student to prom as she reflects on feeling like an outcast growing up and her ultimate goal—"to feel normal."

"I started filming Keeping Up with the Kardashians when I was 9 years old. I really don't know what it's like to not have everyone know who I am," she revealed. "I don't know what it's like to live a normal life, where people just don't know who you are, to get out of the car and not have everyone stare at you.

While she says that sisters Kendall Jenner and Kim Kardashian West "are made for [the spotlight]," the young model—who says she'd wear "this hoodie and my Heelys and sweats every day" if she could—admits that fame can make her feel "insane."

"I for sure didn't choose this life, but I'm not going to say that I'm totally innocent, because I am keeping up this lifestyle," she said during the segment. "I know I'm making myself more famous by having an Instagram and posting photos, but I'm not that type of person where I want all the attention. I don't like that. It actually freaks me out, because it reminds me that I'm 'Kylie f—ing Jenner.'"

She continued, "A lot of people have it worse than me. It's just it is a lot to handle. Sometimes, I'm like: 'This is it. I'm going insane.'"

While the social media mogul says she's still trying to figure it all out, she knows what makes her most happy: "The moments I feel completely normal and just a 19-year-old ... it's the best."