Celebrity Meghan Markle Reportedly Told a Friend She Gave Up Her "Entire Life" for the Royal Family A new book 'Finding Freedom' reveals she was willing to do whatever it took to fit in. By Alicia Brunker Alicia Brunker Instagram Alicia Brunker is a freelance writer who covers celebrity, royal, and fashion news for InStyle.com. She joined InStyle's digital team in 2017, and previously contributed to ELLE, T: The New York Times Style Magazine, and WWD. InStyle's editorial guidelines Published on July 25, 2020 @ 02:07PM Pin Share Tweet Email After Meghan Markle and Prince Harry announced that they would be taking a step back as senior royals of the British royal family, many blamed the former actress for their decision, and wrongfully so. A new book Finding Freedom co-authored by royal reporters Omid Scobie and Carolyn Durand revealed that contrary to popular belief, Harry, not Meghan, was the one who pushed for the move across the pond, and "few knew how much she sacrificed to try to make it work." In one excerpt published by The Times, the biographers say courtiers and some members of the family held Meghan responsible for the royal exit, but that it was Harry who wanted to part ways. "Meghan simply emboldened him to make the change," the authors claim. "She supported him no matter what." A source added, "Fundamentally, Harry wanted out... Deep down, he was always struggling within that world. She’s opened the door for him on that." In fact, the duchess allegedly went to great lengths to fit in with her in-laws, and confided in a friend about her frustrations of her inability to do so. According to Scobie and Durand, "Meghan tearfully told a friend in March: 'I gave up my entire life for this family. I was willing to do whatever it takes. But here we are. It’s very sad.'" Meghan Markle and Kate Middleton's Relationship Wasn't What It Seemed, According to New Book Meghan was also devastated by the fact that Harry was stripped of his honorary military appointments upon the couple's official departure. She reportedly told a friend, "It was so unnecessary... And it’s not just taking something away from him; it’s also that entire military veteran community. You can see how much he means to them, too. So why?" A source called the move "the most demoralizing aspect" of the deal, and that it's been "a tough pill" for Harry to swallow. While it hasn't been easy for Harry to leave life as a royal, he felt he had no other choice in "making things right for his own little family." "This is tearing him apart. He loves the Queen, but his wife feels aggrieved, and he adores his son," a source explained in the book. "Harry’s whole world is Archie." Finding Freedom will be released on Aug. 11.