Celebrity FKA twigs Says Recovering From Abuse Is “The Hardest Thing” She’s Had to Do In 2020, twigs filed a civil suit against Shia LaBeouf citing abuse. By Tessa Petak Tessa Petak Instagram Tessa Petak is a Brooklyn-based writer who helps to cultivate InStyle's illustrious news coverage across a wide range of topics including celebrity, fashion, and entertainment. She also produces and composes celebrity profiles and features for the site and InStyle's digital issues. InStyle's editorial guidelines Published on February 17, 2021 @ 10:37AM Pin Share Tweet Email FKA twigs opened up about her allegations of abuse against actor Shia LaBeouf. The British singer appeared on Elle's March cover where she detailed her experience. "What I went through with my abuser is, hands down, the worst thing [I've experienced] in the whole of my life," she said in the interview. "Recovering has been the hardest thing I've ever tried to do." In the candid and raw interview, twigs opened up about the cycle of abuse — from "love bombing" to gaslighting and social isolation that then led to emotional, verbal, and physical violence. She also detailed a 2019 weekend that is outlined in a civil lawsuit she filed against LaBeouf in December, where he allegedly strangled her in her sleep, threw her to the ground outside of their hotel, and then drove maniacally (at an alarming speed and into traffic) nearly crashing the car. "I was thinking to myself, 'I wonder what would happen to my body...if [we] smashed into a wall at 80 miles per hour?'" she recalled. "I was looking for the airbag and I couldn't see the airbag sign, so I was thinking, 'If he doesn't have an airbag, will this car crush my sternum?'" She attributed her escape from the relationship to "luck." "People wouldn't think that it would happen to a woman like me," she said. "The biggest misconception is, 'Well, you're smart. If it was that bad, why didn't you leave?'" And her response is, "It can happen to anyone." FKA twigs Breaks Her Silence After Suing Ex-Boyfriend Shia LaBeouf for Abuse twigs said she wanted to come forward about her abuse to help other victims — especially when she realized that the Covid-19 lockdown had trapped many victims inside with their abusers. For a time, she and LaBeouf lived together, and she told the magazine that this was when the abuse worsened. "I realized then I wasn't just dealing with a tortured person who was going through a divorce. Or that outside factors in his life [were] making him act out on me. I was involved with an inherently abusive person," she said. twigs added that the manipulation included demands of a certain amount of physical touch, verbal abuse, and sleep deprivation. twigs also tells Elle that it wasn't until her Magdalene world tour in 2019, that she was finally able to break things off with LaBeouf. Now, she says, she is happy to be do things on her own like "hit up Dua Lipa on Instagram, make a song with her, perform on her livestream, and have a new friend…and there's no anxiety behind it." The outcome of twigs' lawsuit has yet to be determined. If you are experiencing domestic violence, The National Domestic Violence Hotline allows you to speak confidentially with trained advocates online or by phone (800-799-7233).