She called grieving "brutal" and "exhausting."


Just a few days after revealing that she was enduring "a grief depression hole," Chrissy Teigen let her followers know that she was starting to feel some hope. In a new Instagram post, Teigen explained that the last two months have been "brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging." However, she noted that she does feel like she's made some progress, saying that things were slowly coming around.

Back on September 30, Teigen and her husband, John Legend, lost Jack, their unborn son, after 20 weeks of pregnancy. On Twitter earlier this week, Teigen wrote that she hadn't been active on social media "because I'm honestly in a bit of a grief depression hole but do not worry as I have so much help around me to get better and I'll be fixed soon."

Chrissy Teigen
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Her message today was hopeful. Teigen wrote that she's still getting help from Legend and that she's slowly making progress.

"When I'm old and grey, I will look back on the last two months as being brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, mentally painful bitches of a couple months. But I refuse to not find humor in both the rage-fits and the outfits," Teigen wrote. "I already see the leaves as orange instead of grey, realized the sky is indeed blue and not black and horn honks on my forced morning walks only bring me to my knees half the time. I can make it up my stairs only stopping once or twice instead of every other, and can get out of the bathtub all by myself as long as I have the promise john will dry me off. anyhow the point is, fuuuuuuuuuuuck, I think it's happening."

Back in 2017, Teigen penned an essay for Glamour explaining that she had suffered postpartum depression and anxiety after the birth of her daughter, Luna Simone. She went on to write an essay for Medium after her pregnancy loss this year. 

"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart," she wrote. "A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn’t feel empty, this space. It feels full."